Khwaishein

Abhi to suraj uga hi tha... ki din dekhne ki khwaish jagne lagi...
Din ki chamak ankhon me kuch yun padi ki hum ye hi bhool baithe...
ki ye din bhi jaldi beet jayega... aur jeevan ka suraj bhi jaldi hi dhal jayega...
aur raat ka andhera mujhse mera saaya chheen le jayega...

Aaj jab din ke prakash sa mai vibhor hun...
aaj apne prakash se jalkar doosron ko roshni dene layak ban baitha hun...
Fir bhi khud ko kuch kam... kuch akela sa paata hun...
shayad iss tez raftar zindagi me uss khwaish ka wajood dhoondna chahta hun...

Meri wo khwaish aaj kahin gumnaam nazar aati hai...
Iss urjit chitt ke navodit prakash me wah khwaish dhoomil maloom padti hai...
Par aaj bhi us khwaish ki yaad mere zakhm hare kar jaati hai...
kyunki zindagi wapas suryoday ka rukh karna chahti hai...

Mai santusht hun... par fir bhi laachaar hun...
Nisha ke andhere se nahi... par apne tej se khud jhulas jane se darta hun...
Uss khwaish ko paane ki koshish ko waqt asafal bana deta hai..

To be continued....

#1: The end of another chapter.

Yes! This is it... the harsh reality of life feels to be harsher.... it is the end... the end of another chapter of life... the end of another episode of life... no re-telecast, no recording, only a vague reminiscence of the past left in mind, only to be cherished for a lifetime. With geographical distances separating the physical beings, our souls are still bound together, tethered to the place where we spent the most beautiful and the most amazing phase of our life. These 4 years have taught us enough and forged our minds with permanent imprints of exquisite memories that will remain green forever.

Its the final day, we've received the receipt of checking out of this phase of 4 years of being together. Its our Convocation, the day of the commemoration of 6 years (4+2) of our hard work. But for me, its the other way round. The other face to the coin is that we are not going to meet again altogether, I know it and that's for sure. But still, the unbound faith of my mind keeps hallucinating me forcing me to realise as if nothing's over, as if its just a usual small break and there's another semester coming. Friends, yes they are bastards but still you can't live without them, and I could well realize it while bidding them adieu when they pacified my sentiments with the same old cliche "Koi na s*%le, tension na le, milte rahenge". Huh... an addition to the hallucination of my mind that towed away the perception of reality I once had.

All these years we had fun, we enjoyed life in every way we could but there was also a darker side to it. Quarrels, fights and some degree of hatred, that is natural to occur in a gathering, only added to the worth of bonding we had with others because it is innate in human nature to realize the actual worth and essence of people in their life when they know that they are not going to meet those people again, not any time sooner atleast. This was discernible this time when we met again after 6 months of staying away when keeping our differences away we had the best gathering ever. This made our lives livelier than ever.

But the spirit is still not pacified, there's something missing! Give me another 4 years and still something would be missing again!

Now that everyone would be back to hell, they'ld have no other option but to move ahead and to carry on the same monotonous schedule.

I know its impossible, but I feel like breaking the shackles of nature travelling back to the same phase, the same place, coveting to be a part of the same environment and the same people. All that I know and have realized is that life has given me so much and no matter whereever I am, whatever I do or whoever I am, life would never be the same again. :(

Expect no reciprocity. This world is selfish!

The world is bonded to you till you fulfill its requirements (greed).

I was born selfish. Yes, I was and if you ponder a little you won't find it strange to realise that every living being is born that way. The struggle to survive in this world is all that makes you selfish right from the point of time you enter into this world. But, this selfishness is justified to some extent owing to its very nature of commensalism in contrast to predation.

This world is an evolving place. Its very dynamic nature triggers the birth of creed in humans to fulfill their greed and it is the same dynamic nature which makes their greed insatiable. May be humans are born with this creed or may be they inculcated it during their genetic evolution. This creed for satiation, per se, is not bad. But again, homo sapiens are gregarious animals. We love to flock together, share our experiences with others, help each other & learn from others' experiences. After all, each person evolves in a different set of situation, in a different tone with different abilities which makes everyone's experience during his lifespan unique & distinct and this is what makes flocking together all the more entertaining & enriching. Thus, it is the timespan of the evolution of an infant into a fully mature human that uncovers a lot before him & makes an individual learn, adapt or cope up with the set of situations he is exposed to and this is where it all starts. This very need to cope up with the adverse situations makes the individual self-centric. His actions are then guided by the motive to ensure his own welfare first. But, welfare at what cost?

It is completely ethical to think about your welfare until and unless it is driven by empathy from your part. Mind my words, I do not mean that one needs to be emotional rather one needs to be rationally emotional. That realization, that sense of pain realised by you that others might go through while you are enjoying your welfare is what we call empathy. Here comes the concept of reciprocity.

To be continued........